Im highly irritated right now. So this will most likely be a whiney rant, which i don't like doing but I need to vent. Starting off, it's not like anyone is actualy going to READ this anyway. So I don't think i'll put much thought into what im saying.

If frustration could kill you I think i'd be pushing up daisies by now. There is so much noise in my room because my dog refuses, no matter WHAT I do, to shut up. He is the yappiest dog I think i've ever seen in my life. I tried to tell him no, i punished him, i gave him attention EVERYTHING. HE WILL NOT CEASE. You might find this funny...But try being ME right now. He is directly in my ears and I have NOWHERE to go. I don't even know why I have him anymore, I dont have the patience to train him and what little bit i have APPERENTLY i havent done a good job at all according to some people. I might as well just give him to someone who's better than me.

/end rant phase one

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/start rant phase two

DeviantART. Why am I on it... I don't know anymore I really just don't. It takes SERIOUS motivation for me to post ANYTHING on here because noone bothers to drop me a comment, not even once a month to say "Hey you're doing better!" Or even tell me I suck. I need SOMETHING else there is NO point in me posting anything here. That's somewhat of the point of posting you know...Comments...Critique. If I just didn't care and went by my own judgement CHANCES ARE I wouldn't even BE HERE. The ONLY people. ONLY. PEOPLE. Who actualy tell me anything in that form is my Mom. Oro. and some RANDOM STRANGER once in a blue moon will pass by and comment. I swear I know I sound like an ungreatful whine-bag right now but I really think this way, I just don't bother to say it. Half the people that watch me do NOTHING. I get like....up to 5 faves at max on some pics, which I DO appriciate (Thanks guys) but not comments. Nope. None. Mabye one...Sometimes..But usualy, no. Which sucks when I actualy do something I think is remotely good and I get nothing. But whatever...

Im not trying to be envious of anyone, but some people who I know...Not gonna say the names...Draw...Not so good. And I really am not trying to put this person down, im not...I know it takes practice, it took me forever to get where i am. But the thing is...She has watchers. and comments. and a FAN BASE like you wouldn't believe. And she's not exactly the nicest person, and I don't see why she gets it all...I might not be amazing but i know for a fact that I can draw better than her. I sound very immature right now...But oh well...I feel this way and im not happy. Infact I don't think anyone is even bothering to read this right now. So i'll just go on my merry way and find something else to do with my life, because me posting this won't change anything. No matter how much I hope it will.


If you see an "I'm leaving" journal at any point from me. Try not to put too much effort into reading it, you might hurt yourself.

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-Fang
--Shikon ♠